i finally saw myself

I finally saw myself this week. Behind the stains of experiences that I allowed to define who I was, I saw myself this week. I saw my big brown eyes in the mirror and didn’t think once that it was filled with only trauma and lies. I saw my smile and didn’t think of who it came from. 

When I finally saw myself, it was at nearly 2AM on a Friday morning. I sat on my battered sectional, legs crossed, and my Roku screen flashing in front of me. Fresh from a long nap I took after work. And it happened.

I clicked on my horoscope, and it read, “You are not alone.” A few tears slowly rolled down as I read the rest.

Look around. Notice the subtle ways others have woven you into their lives. That text message. The saved seat. The inside joke. These aren't accidents. They're evidence you matter in ways you've been too busy feeling alone to see.

I finally saw myself yesterday, and I decided that I like who this girl Bre’Anna truly is.