Chasing My Mind

My biggest fear is to

Lose

My

Mind

I am scared that my intuition is really indecision

That those nights my grandma woke up in delusion

Is simply an illusion to all I might become

I am scared that my self awareness is really unfairness

That I project onto myself

Choking out my ability to see me as nothing other than a bomb ready to explode I am

scared that all I am and all I will ever be is a narcissistic bitch

That the traits I see force its way into my family are bound to force their way through me

I am scared because I always feel like I am drowning

Like my mind is running and I am chasing

And when I finally hold onto it

I scream and cry

Because I never want to let it go